Freedom! I love it!
July 8th 2008 00:06
Coincindentally, last 4th of July, I submitted my resignation letter.
I am serving 60 days notice instead of the usual 2-4weeks to give my boss enough time to find a replacement and for me to train that new person well.
I have been contemplating on this for the past 2 months at least (notice that was when I started lagging on my posts). I finally came up with a decision last week.
I have to say, after 5 tedious years in this company (straight out of college), I learned a lot and I've met a lot of people. I had a hard time coming up to a decision mostly because of the people I'll be leaving and surprisingly the thought of being "unemployed" only came second.
This industry I've been with for the past 5 years is toxic to say the least. It's financially rewarding - yes very much so - but after 5 years, I realized it's not all worth it. The stress, realationship/marital problems and health problems I've dealt with all throughout those 5 years mostly sprung from this job. The stress the demand for you is just not worth all those money. Unless of course money's more important to you.
You just can't buy peace of mind, total and complete relaxation, good relationships and your health. Sure there are very temporary solutions to all of these but that's just it, temporary.
I've been searching inside me for reasons why I should stay -- even the people I work with whom I truly truly love and treasure are just not enough reasons. I realized that although I treasure my team, staying doesn't really benefit them especially since I haven't been inspired or motivated to go to work. I know for a fact that it will reflect down to my people and that's definitely the last thing I want to contribute to this team.
I needed a change, a break even. After all, I did not have a week's rest after a good 16 years of schooling before I started working full time for this industry.
It feels wonderful. I keep getting amazed at how wonderful it actually feels. This was my first job, and I have had a wonderful wonderful experience. I cannot deny that. I had great bosses -- one I consider my mentor, friend and confidant.
I've had prodigies and "projects" I'm exteremely proud of. I have had accomplishments in records and numbers, but I'm more proud of what my people have achieved and become since I was a first-time-inexperienced manager until I leave this company.
None of the records and numbers will live and fulfill my dreams - those will become part of history. Only these people I'm proud to hold up high and brag about when they become that "someone" in their near futures can make me happy.
I have always been thinking how I'd leave this company, and I've learned from a colleague that I don't want to leave this company when I'm so fed up already that I could care less about the mark I'm leaving here.
I decided that while I can still see this company, this team and this "family" as an achievement and source of pride is the best time to leave. I'm leaving because I believe my work is done here. I do not want to go to the next level - no siree - that's just a whole new different level of stress, I can tell by how much they're getting LOL!
I have cried every now and then at the thought of leaving my team, but I get so excited at the prospect of having new people to develop, learning something new from a different company or different industry altogether.
Freedom! True. I never thought It'd feel THIS GOOD!
I thank God he showed me that this is the right time. I am happy. So happy that I had the energy to create new posts (note the plural form) today!
I never really thought resignations can be a happy and good thing -- especially when you still don't have a new job to move to. To me it has become very liberating. I've been smiling since I decided on this and I haven't smiled in months! I feel so light. Sometimes giddy even because I know I can focus on other things now.
I'm sharing this because I don't think I've heard of people quitting (i didn't quit, I resigned
) their jobs and either feel so bitter about their jobs or they feel relieved because of how difficult their jobs were.
I'm quitting with a positive attitude and for a good reason. No bitterness and that's what I'm proud of. That's what I hope people feel when they decide to move on to another chapter in their lives or careers.
I pray people realize this. I hope everyone finds it in them what they really want to do and avoid sticking it out in their current jobs beacuse of different fears.
I Feared being unemployed, but since this whole thing started, I had faith. The kind I didn't have two months ago. The kind I never though I'd have.
I am serving 60 days notice instead of the usual 2-4weeks to give my boss enough time to find a replacement and for me to train that new person well.
I have been contemplating on this for the past 2 months at least (notice that was when I started lagging on my posts). I finally came up with a decision last week.
I have to say, after 5 tedious years in this company (straight out of college), I learned a lot and I've met a lot of people. I had a hard time coming up to a decision mostly because of the people I'll be leaving and surprisingly the thought of being "unemployed" only came second.
This industry I've been with for the past 5 years is toxic to say the least. It's financially rewarding - yes very much so - but after 5 years, I realized it's not all worth it. The stress, realationship/marital problems and health problems I've dealt with all throughout those 5 years mostly sprung from this job. The stress the demand for you is just not worth all those money. Unless of course money's more important to you.
You just can't buy peace of mind, total and complete relaxation, good relationships and your health. Sure there are very temporary solutions to all of these but that's just it, temporary.
I've been searching inside me for reasons why I should stay -- even the people I work with whom I truly truly love and treasure are just not enough reasons. I realized that although I treasure my team, staying doesn't really benefit them especially since I haven't been inspired or motivated to go to work. I know for a fact that it will reflect down to my people and that's definitely the last thing I want to contribute to this team.
It feels wonderful. I keep getting amazed at how wonderful it actually feels. This was my first job, and I have had a wonderful wonderful experience. I cannot deny that. I had great bosses -- one I consider my mentor, friend and confidant.
I've had prodigies and "projects" I'm exteremely proud of. I have had accomplishments in records and numbers, but I'm more proud of what my people have achieved and become since I was a first-time-inexperienced manager until I leave this company.
None of the records and numbers will live and fulfill my dreams - those will become part of history. Only these people I'm proud to hold up high and brag about when they become that "someone" in their near futures can make me happy.
I have always been thinking how I'd leave this company, and I've learned from a colleague that I don't want to leave this company when I'm so fed up already that I could care less about the mark I'm leaving here.
I decided that while I can still see this company, this team and this "family" as an achievement and source of pride is the best time to leave. I'm leaving because I believe my work is done here. I do not want to go to the next level - no siree - that's just a whole new different level of stress, I can tell by how much they're getting LOL!
I have cried every now and then at the thought of leaving my team, but I get so excited at the prospect of having new people to develop, learning something new from a different company or different industry altogether.
Freedom! True. I never thought It'd feel THIS GOOD!
I thank God he showed me that this is the right time. I am happy. So happy that I had the energy to create new posts (note the plural form) today!
I never really thought resignations can be a happy and good thing -- especially when you still don't have a new job to move to. To me it has become very liberating. I've been smiling since I decided on this and I haven't smiled in months! I feel so light. Sometimes giddy even because I know I can focus on other things now.
I'm sharing this because I don't think I've heard of people quitting (i didn't quit, I resigned
) their jobs and either feel so bitter about their jobs or they feel relieved because of how difficult their jobs were. I'm quitting with a positive attitude and for a good reason. No bitterness and that's what I'm proud of. That's what I hope people feel when they decide to move on to another chapter in their lives or careers.
I pray people realize this. I hope everyone finds it in them what they really want to do and avoid sticking it out in their current jobs beacuse of different fears.
I Feared being unemployed, but since this whole thing started, I had faith. The kind I didn't have two months ago. The kind I never though I'd have.
this is how I want to leave Exactly how I feel. Exactly what my team's making me feel
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Comment by Market Newbie
Gizmo Peek
Stock Market Punk
Nice to see you are "alive and kicking and ready to pound the keyboards again!" I passed this road too, once, before. If you've done your job well before you decide to leave, I wouldn't really call it quitting. I'd say you are just changing directions. As I think I did. Though a friend told me that all I actually needed was (this is going to sound corny but here it is), A COOL CHANGE!
Good Luck, favcoffeenamesake!
Comment by Market Newbie
Gizmo Peek
Stock Market Punk
Nice to see you are "alive and kicking and ready to pound the keyboards again!" I passed this road too, once, before. If you've done your job well before you decide to leave, I wouldn't really call it quitting. I'd say you are just changing directions. As I think I did. Though a friend told me that all I actually needed was (this is going to sound corny but here it is) A COOL CHANGE!
Good Luck, favcoffeenamesake!
Comment by Hazel Castillo
Working Title
Cirrus Cloud
Parent Adventures
Been contemplating on the other things the past two months you know some of my dillema i believe
I am proud of my decision and happy about.
Cool change - true